“Pau hana” is a Hawai’ian phrase that means “the end of work”. I spent summer 2011 there giving up things, looking for new things to take up. I meant to question the tools I had carried in my hands so long, but it is hard to know exactly what you do and why.
This blog is not so much about Hawaii and what I did there. I was knocked down and spat out by the ocean, buffeted by winds in the dark, up high with half the air: it wasn’t a vacation. There are pictures of Hawaii the place and Hawaii the idea, but upon reflection I wonder what it is they really show. What do you see?
Hawaii was somewhere I’d always wanted to go, and I had no reason not to, so I went. I had no agenda and no goal. That was new for me. I figured I would find something, whatever it was. I am learning more and more what it was.
I am back in my Seattle home where the new work is ongoing. I am adjusting to being myself, with myself. I am learning it will be all right.
I am Derek Dexheimer. I am on a voyage I didn’t really plan in a year of massive change. Two worlds in one year. Follow along.
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